The two week absence has been necessary for me to sort some things out. I’ve decided to turn to you all who may have been through something similar in the past. I’ve been studying Portuguese in preparation for our move to Luanda, Angola in February. I’ve heard it said that if you don’t speak the language it can be downright isolating. I’ve also heard it said that if you leave the “compound” you’ll be immediately accosted for your iphone and any incidental bling, bull mastiff in tow or not, but that’s another story.
The truth is that I really don’t know what the truth is about our post and doubt that I will until we get there. I’ve gotten plenty of opinions and unfortunately many aren’t too encouraging. Not a big deal, we’re still very excited. Okay, so here’s where I need some input… I’ve been studying with Snakes at FSI for 8 weeks now. With my background in Spanish, I’ve done fairly well and consider myself proficient regarding pronunciation. This week we have our interim progress evaluations. I’m feeling pretty confident. Let me just cut to the chase….
I’m over it.
I miss my life. I miss my studio. I hate that I’ve only visited TWO museums. Summer is pretty much over (even though this week’s forecast is hangin tough in the mid-90s). I need to update my etsy site. I need to get working on my website. (NO small task.) I have two HUGE shows coming up in the next 6 weeks and I don’t have nearly enough stock. I still need to research, apply and prepare for holiday shows. I feel like I’m working myself silly. When I get home from a 6-7 hour day of studying Portuguese, I high tail it to my studio in the basement and get crankin. (Just an aside: the Portuguese word for basement is “cave” pronounced with an “ahh” sound, but still pretty great considering how dank & musty ours is.) Snakes usually calls me up around 8 for dinner and after I usually head back down until 10-11. Get up, do it all again…
The only reason I’m taking the luxury of time to write this now is because I’m home, sick. One of our classmates came down with a bug last week and has been out since. So I’m playing incubator now. As much as I enjoy sneezing, too much of any good thing is just too damned much.
Sounds like I’ve got it all sorted out, right? Just resign. Drop out. Problem solved. Alas, nothing is that easy. First, what an amazing benefit and what a lazy jerk I would be for not taking full advantage. I could be “professionally fluent” if I just hang in for another 4 months. Would chances of a job at the embassy evaporate if I threw in my fluency towel? Do I even want a job at the embassy?
Okay, so here is what I propose: I stop taking the full time course. Enroll in the abbreviated self-study (has anyone out there done this one? Is it just Rosetta Stone or do they offer weekly consults for more support?) This allows me to get back to my work. Keep the fuzz ball factor in check on the home front. (Aint easy with two big dogs, even despite our hardworking FURminator). Cook some nice meals and keep up on laundry which would definitely help to cut back Snakes’ stress levels. I think I’ve already made up my mind. Is there anyone out there who thinks I’m making a terrible mistake??